~!~Hold My Hand~!~

There are things in this life that I am sure of: 

~ Love

~ Happiness

~ Friends

~ Family

This is my dream:

I want to feel free. I want to live. I need to live. Go somewhere where life is at its finest. Where you know nobody, you are alone with yourself and the only person you can depend on is yourself. People in this lifetime are becoming less and less self-reliant. People depend on phones, computers, and gossip to keep them going in life, to plan their next day or to find out what "Jimmy's" girlfriends friends brothers friend is doing with her best friend who happens to be "Jimmy's" sister. Who cares? Who wants to care? What happened to simplicity? Where has the simplest form of life gone?

What is the simplest form of life? What is the simplest form of you? That is my question to myself. 

I have so much curiosity for what lies ahead of me. This world holds so much opportunity for me. The only way I feel like I will be able to achieve experiencing life at it’s fullest is leaving Fort St. John, my little brothers who mean the absolute world to me, leaving my best friends, leaving the people who made me who I am today, by leaving the only place I have known and to study the places I have never been. The only way for me to find my purpose is to dream. For me dreaming is living. I want to live my dreams. I will not live to work; I am going to work to live. 

I am not running away. I refuse to run away, because I know I am going to come back! 

This is where my journey is going to start: 

I am starting with Ghana, Africa July 6th-29.  In Ghana I am going to be helping orphaned children and help rebuild a orphanage so that the poorest of poor, which happen to be children younger then I have a better suited living conditions. 

My point of view on going to Ghana and working for the poverty is not to feel bad for them, or to feel bad for myself; for the children and people there don't know anything else. They don't know what life would be like if they had computers, cell phones, TV’s, etc. All they know is family love, surviving. I know the reality of this trip is I am going to feel bad, I am going to feel torn when I have to leave these children, but the reward is so much greater then my feelings of sadness, it will be that I have put a positive influence in a small village in Africa. A small piece of my heart to the children and to grow with people I don't know very well and to get closer to my true self. 

I am only 17, I have my whole life to live, but I don't want to spend half of my life planning to do something. I am going to do it, and I am going to start my life the day I graduate from good ole North Peace Secondary School. :) 

Xoxo Shelbie